I'm really nervous about this dinner tonight. The guy might have responded in English, but I'm so uncomfortable conversing in French right now that it makes me nervous that I'm going to look like an idiot.
Of course, this is why I moved to France in the first place. To meet European men. Yes, that is my sole goal. In theory it sounds all romantic, in practicality, it sounds like a freaking nightmare.
I am so wound up about it I got on the wrong train back to my apartment. But the extra long trip has given me a chance to think about what I have to lose, by going tonight, or really doing anything I do. Which really I don't have anything to lose. I no longer own anything to speak of, and I threw my pride off a bridge... A few times, most notably around Christmas in an email.
I also realize I have no career or career goals to speak of and I don't think that will change anytime soon. I want to be in a relationship. What exactly is so wrong about pursuing love the way some pursue a career path?
So, I have found a few suggestions to meet people, including the dinner tonight, and even the cafe at the main library? Can't do that in the states.
So here is hoping I can get what I really want.