Marilyn.

One of my favorite quotes is from Marilyn Monroe:

“ If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ”

I just wish my worst wouldn't show up at the most inopportune times. Like within 5 days of meeting someone.

But i think just the very act of opening myself up to another person wakes up the scared, crazy in me. Which is so frustrating. I wish I could just erase that night from my mind. I wish I could go back and say something in my head to myself that would make me feel like the world isn't ending.

Alright, enough beating myself up today. I am determined to learn from this.